Tatyana Zargishiyeva

I was born in the Far East, in the city of Ussuriisk in 1966. My native mother has refused me and I have been adopted by a family of the military man at which the child has died. In this family why that children always died. And I have grown one.

We went much. Long lived in Belarussii, have stopped already in Ukraine, last place of service of my father. Here I have left school, here have entered the university, Here in 1988 have married. Too for the military man. In 1989 at us the son was born. And my husband was given assignment to Germany. There to me began to contakt witnesses of Iegovy, the Germans specially studying Russian began to come what to communicate with Russian. From them I have heard that God can speak with me directly. They have given me the first push to searches of God. I would like to know, what is God, were is HE. At that time I some times merged a malefice to people and thought that I am good. After contact with me to people it became easier. But I did not know that already then God has enclosed in me gift the consulat

In 1994 the withdrawal of troops from Germany has begun. And by the summer all families of military men have left Germany. Military men still remained till September, before parade in Berlin. I have arrived to parents in May, have met the schoolmates. And one girlfriend has shared that her husband began to go to baptists, has started to read the specific literature. I have met her husband Igor. It began to bring to me books. When I read the book "Jesus - our destiny", I as though have seen myself from outside. My relations with the husband were not in the best condition. And I have understood, how much I am guilty in them. would like to change everything, not only our relations, but also. I remember, how sitting in park under a birch, I asked God to enter into my life and to change it. I asked to make me the best wife for my husband, to adjust our relations with it.

After that day I saw, as though something occurred to my parents. I had such rest, and they were nervous on trifles, I could not understand them. I had a bent for to dialogue with such, as I. Near to my house there was a church of Christians of belief Evangelical. I have gone to them on meeting, then there was a conversation with the pastor, then a repentance in church. And after a while for me there has arrived the husband whom have directed to Kareliya to serve. And we have gone by the car from Chernovtsy to Petrozavodsk. The first stop was in Kiev. There there lived a family from which served in Germany. The woman was the medium. We had to stay the night at them. In the evening, after a supper, she has suggested to tell fortunes to us with the husband. When guessed to me was surprised that all card was red, all my feelings have been turned to my husband. And when guessed to my husband has asked why he fools around. So I have learnt that my husband has a mistress and it did not hide it.

We have somehow reached to Petrozavodsk. Have stopped at the thrown factory, in a change house. Except us there there lived two more families, with children. On the ground floor there was a technical park, on the second we lived. On a floor, in a corridor was a unique bowl with the crane of cold water. Our room was metres 15. In it there were two soldier's beds connected, one cot, one table, and on a table there was an electrotile with one ring. The toilet was in the street, behind park. When cars were got, carbonic oxide got to premises,coughed strongly both children and adults. And mice was much and that with them did not do, them did not decrease.

I prayed to God for our habitation, about my husband, about our mutual relations. He has not left the mistress and I felt it. Somehow it has come home after a bath. And at it on a back any rash. I asked it to go to the doctor, but he refused. While the rash has not outgrown in ulcers. To me it was terrible for it and for us with the son. I very much asked the Lord to keep us from illness. The doctor has told that it is an itch. It is transferred quickly, a household way. But neither I nor my son were not ill. God stored us. And later, when my husband brought illnesses of other plan, my God stored me as. I tried to respect the husband, prepared and erased to it. Somehow have gone on dances, he has seen the mistress and all the evening long has spent with it. And our friends who were with us, did not understand, why I one and with whom it is my husband dance.

We have moved to a hostel. And me it became a bit easier, because I could communicate with somebody. My acquaintances who knew a situation, said that I am a silly woman that it is abnormal to look after the husband when it about you wipes feet. But God spoke to continue. I was not completely a mild lamb, «showed sometimes my teenth». But nevertheless, thanks to my behaviour we have kept good relations with the husband after divorce. It has estimated it when married the mistress.

In 1996 we have divorced, I have arrived to parents to Chernovtsy. There in December, 1996 I have accepted a water christening in the baptist of church. My parents did not understand me, but in due course they have simply ceased to pay attention. In 1998 mum in the summer dies. And the father in a year marries another. I had a difficult period; I did not work, earned additionally as could. And somehow in conversation to me have told:» After all you not native". So I have learnt about my adoption. To me it was sorry not because my father to me not the native. No. To me it was sorry and sick that after death of mum the father has refused to communicate with me and motivated it with that I not the native.

The first years after a christening were the heaviest, but the happiest because the Lord was very close to me. Was hardly financially, we did not starve, but the son grew also to it the good food was necessary. It some times fell from very low pressure, the doctor has told that the organism grows and does not eat up. And God sent me brothers and sisters. They brought that could. God has taken away from me a family, but has given another, much more nativ, than former.

During this period I had a renunciation prayer as dealt with an occultism earlier. Long time the devil did not wish to release me: I could wake up among night from not clear fear, I felt a shade going for me. At me there lived a cat, he jumped at night on a neck to the sleeping son and thus its eyes not normally burnt. I expelled a cat on street, in due course it was gone. Once in the evening, after group, the pastor prayed over me. Having come home, I have felt, as something or someone has seized me by feet. But I in hearing have told that the devil has no more power over me. And after that all has left. My son began to sleep easy. The shade has ceased to go for me and, apparently, it became easier to breathe.

Now I bear in church service spirit consula, I communicate with lonely sisters. Sometimes I compose songs, sometimes I execute them. I am grateful to God for rescue, is grateful for a new family. I thank the Lord for parents, after all it is a lot of children whom have refused, have filled up and fill up children's homes. I pray for the former husband and even have once implored for it from death which he searched in Tajikistan. I pray for the father and our relations of a steel is more warmish. I pray for the son who yet does not know God, but God has promised to me that my son once will be one spirit with me.

And I trust my FATHER. He never threw and will not leave me.